sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear....
It's rather ironic that those were the first lyrics to play on my ipod as soon as I started to type because they pretty much sum up my mood right now. In a nut shell, after having lived at my current address for just shy of three months, I'm moving again. In a way I'm pretty scared, but at the same time I'm excited, and yet, there's a sense of sadness in it all, so I guess uncertainty is the best way to describe it. In all, the whole process has taken approximately one week to transpire from initial discovery of the place to actually setting down in ink (and in monetary deposit) that our intentions of moving were not mere speculation. Despite the hassel it's going to be to pack everything up again and move it roughly one mile from it's current residence, I'm feeling hopeful. I don't feel that my first chance in this city went as well as I might have hoped, and a great deal of that has to do with the fact that I was feeling greatly pressured and stressed about not only my job but also with my relationships with my friends. I've become somewhat of a hermit in my own home for reasons that I can't fully understand but now, I feel that I've been given an opportunity to stop trying so hard to live and just live, just feel, just enjoy being a healthy individual in this world. This is a pretty generic situation I suppose since I'm more than positive that I'm not the first person in the world to ever feel this way about moving to a new place, but it helps to get it into writing.
So I guess with all that having been said... whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there....
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